Since it's been so long since I've written (I'm sorry!) I guess I should fill you in on what's been going on behind the scenes of my life. My weddings take precedence on social media so this is a good place to catch up.
There have been so many changes in my life in the past year. My family and I moved to Atlanta, which is my childhood home. It feels amazing to me to be back in the city. There is so much life here. An electricity that I have missed. But Macon and the Middle Georgia area were also my home for 17 years, and I still appreciate it's slowness. It's nature and it's rustic, country aspect that made it easier for me to forage beautiful things from. So, I love that I can bounce back and forth between my home in the city and the more remote locations of the weddings I serve. Balance.
I've learned a lot about business. A new license, taxes, insurance, the basic financial stuff. Then there's the social media. How your Instagram should look, how your website should look, is your information in all the right places, etc. It's a full-time job in itself! To add to that, there's finding your ideal client, building your team, letting go of some control so you still have the ever-coveted "work/life balance". I feel like I stumble through it all even though I've taken the classes and listened to my new floral friends and their experiences with the business over time. I suppose this is life. Or maybe the life of an entrepreneur, I'm not sure. I am slowly getting better at it. Every so often someone makes the comment, "You sounded like such a boss!" I'm getting there but it still feels weird.
My craft has evolved as well. I look at the photos of my work when I started and see such simplicity. My new work is full of texture and movement. It's a little more unstructured and more dramatic because I'm less afraid to just do what I like. This will still, I feel, get better over time. Flowers have really helped me through when I was feeling out of control in other areas. I'm working on my fears in all areas of my life.
That leads into my personal life. 2018 was hard. I go back and forth about how much detail I want to give about it. My marriage has been rocky for some time and I was forced to deal with it. I had a crash course in life, in love, in trust, in understanding, in sensitivity, in self-worth, and how to communicate about a lot of those things. I don't like that I'm so self-conscious. So I got in front of the camera instead of hiding behind it. It takes courage and vulnerability when you aren't used to it but it gets easier. It helps my brand to put my face with it but it helps me as a person, too. Things are not perfect by any means. But this whole post is a work in progress, isn't it?